Time off

Well, I decided to take some time off from blogging but am now ready to go again. Not much has changed in my world with regards to my scoliosis. I'm terrible at sticking with exercise plans so I'm still struggling with finding something that I truly enjoy. I don't believe that my curve has increased since my x-rays last year but I plan on getting another set done this fall for comparison.

Other than that, I'm still looking for any doctor (other than a surgeon) in Calgary that knows anything about scoliosis in adults and how to deal with it. I did go to the National Spine Care Clinic and saw a physiotherapist there but again it was the usual "here are some exercises to do at home" bit. And then "come back and see me in a month and we'll see how you did". Sadly, that doesn't work for me. There's no motivation for me in that as I don't seem to mind disappointing them and I'm so used to disappointing myself on the issue of my back that it's not sinking in anymore. Very frustrating!

So I guess the biggest thing I'm trying to overcome now is the lack of motivation for making my physical life better. I'm afraid that it would take some major wake-up call for me to become truly motivated to work as hard as is necessary to make my back better. The lack of money to find the best people to help with this process is extremely limiting as well. I'm still working on the mental side of this disease and until I overcome that, I'm stuck.